July 8 2011

The first shock of my life.
July 8, 2011. My Dad had a heart attack. REAL LIFE. HEART ATTACK. Thats only supposed to happen to Old people! Not my dad! I was worried, But I still had a calm feeling. My dad was Life flighted and stayed at the Utah Valley Hospital until Monday Morning. My 5 siblings and I stayed at grandma Celia's house, waiting on good news. I have literally received a Miracle in my life. I am so so thankful for prayers and priesthood blessings! & all the great nurses and Doctors out there! (: Including my Mom. I have also learned that I do not! want to be a teen mom. hah I survived 4 nights with 2 baby girls but I don't think I could've done it completely voluntarily. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE! MY DAD! (: & I'M SO HAPPY HE'S OKAY! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY FAMILY TOO (: ALL OF YOU! Thanks for all the prayers and help along the way, my dad will just have to work at getting better (:

It's Worth It.

You have 3 choices in life ; Give up. Give in. Or Give it your all!

Girls camp is next week. I'm a junior leader, & I can't wait! I've been putting things together non stop (:
Our theme is "It's A Jungle Out There", I thought the song "He Lives In You" from Lion King 2 would be a cool song to play for part of my Fireside (on my birthday!) It's a cool song if you think of it in a spiritual way, &!! It fits the Jungle theme perfect (: It's short and sweet, but I can't wait! I am so excited (: Throw me luck! (:

Taking It Slow

I can't wait to turn 16 (:

Worst Fears; Greatest Lessons Learned

I have until the 25th. Then I'm free for summer!
I can't wait, so many things are wrong that I just want to be alone all the time! I hate how people change, you know?
I hate the fact that I'll probably never see any of my high school friends again after school. But sometimes it makes me feel better, to think about that. I have lost so many friends lately- they say I haven't lost them, but it's that distance feeling that I can't stand.
There's days where I can think I'm better than I was, then there's days where I miss my old self, my old life.
Everyday I sit and think of things I want to change, but then come to the conclusion that there's no way to change those things & that it's all a part of growing up. Growing up sucks.
BUT sometimes all I ever want, is to be "Grown Up". That way, I can deal with myself and not have to worry about anyone else or anyone else worrying about me- then I realize that family steps in at that point.
My family, I know for a fact, worries about me. I know I worry about them too, and that's how it will always be. Because that's love. LOVE.
I love my family. I'm so thankful for them, I know how blessed I am to have every single one of them! (ps; My Mom's family I swear has like 2,000+ grand kids which all our my cousins! Never ending!(: haha)I love how close I am with a lot of my family, and most the time I want to be closer- I'm always wanting to see my family.

SO! After you've read my whole thought process ^ - My point is that FAMILY will always be there. I realized that I have to stop worrying about HIGH SCHOOL. Because it's nothing, the people there are nothing. Sure I've got great friends and I've got a lot out of it that I'll remember forever, but when it's over- it's over. Life goes on & I shouldn't be scared, I'll never be alone (:

Just Like This.

-Lion King = Jordannn & My Favorite --

-Him & I used to always draw on the windows on the bus rides in the morning.. last year. ha! See we're still best friends, it's GREAT! :D


I love being the person you tell everything to, I love how I never have to say anything. You still trust me.
I love being the one person you feel comfortable with saying things you're never comfortable with.
I love arguing with you, never getting mad just making each other laugh until there's tears in my eyes & running down my face.
I love learning new things with you, discovering the new and realizing the old.
I love being embarrassed around you, because it never bothers me.
I love making fun of your music and trying to memorize "our song".
I love telling you my dreams, even when they don't make sense ever, because you help me have hope and find out ways to make them come true.
You're the greatest friend I've got.
I love you.
[: --Jordannn William Carter / Iron Will / Rock paper scissors Champ / Awkward Silence LOSER. [;
You'll probably never see this, ha thats fine. Just letting the world know that I'm still happy with a GUY best friend when I miss my Katie Lloyd & Shyann McCoy best friends.. hmmmph.

I'll Try to Be One Step Behind, A Soft Ground For You To Fall Back On.

I don't know what to tell you
Because I know what you're thinking.
You're happy, having fun.
You're growing up without me.
You're changing to what you said you would never be.

I take the blame,
Because I'm on the edge.
Right on the edge.
Holding back, watching you.
Letting you. But waiting still.

You seem so different, so elated.
But I know it's wrong.
I know it will hurt soon.
I'll be here no matter what.
No matter how much you've changed.
No matter what you've done to me.

I won't change.
I hate that our friendship has changed, faded.
But I won't let it vanish.

I'm A Picky Person, I Do Have Favorites

Pointing out a few people that I can't go without telling them that I love them!

Brother Carter & His wife! I love how they make me feel like no excuse is ever good enough & I always feel like trying to be better because of them & their example! (: I LOVE YOU!
I love SEMINARY because of them(:

My Cousin Tessa!! (: I like to call her Bruceyy. She always puts up a fight for what she wants & I would love to be as strong as her! She's always helping me out (: I love day dreaming with her about our futures, and planning to have our life's intertwine and how we're going to make it happen NO MATTER WHAT! (: I LOVE YOU!

My Best Friend Jacie Nielson! I like to call her JacerrFacerr.. Because i called her that on accident one day. ha! Well i love her mostly because she allows me to goof off and let go of everything else going on! with her its all just fun and games and making the most out of today! She's great at making inside jokes with too! You just wouldn't believe how many inside jokes we have! I LOVE YOU!

JORDAN WILLIAM CARTER!! (: Been my best friend since last year, Mr.Allen's art classes were the best with him!! (: He makes me laugh so much! I have so much fun with him (: Sweetest kid ever! I hope I can always be his best friend and things will NEVER change between us, he's just that kind of person who takes such good care of you that you don't ever wanna let him down! I LOVE YOU

..SOOOOOO MANY OTHER PEOPLE! but right now, you're just on my mind a little too much. I had to put it out there(:
Shyann, Nelli, Mandee, My mom, My dad, My gma's & gpa's, My aunts, Trenton Jon, sooo many other people. I love you!(:

What I'd Do To Have You Here

Wow, Shyann pointed out how long it's been since I've been on here! (I lost my password! ha)
So updates;
I've been catching up with Scipio friends lately(: Saw Austin Monroe at state basketball & it almost made me cry to think I haven't been there in so long!
BOYS BASKETBALL TOOK STATE!(: I think that was the perfect way to end cheer!...That's right cheer is over! I think I'm happy, I don't think I'll try out next year, I'm scared I'll miss it but I'm scared I won't like it... huh.
Bryler & EllieCake are growing so big! (: Ellie is becoming a punk! but I love how much she talks lately! (: I can never get enough of her saying "ridiculous!" Brylee...cries..a lot. Especailly since my mom has gone back to work!
I'm still in Gymnastics, & I love it!! (: I'm trying really hard to be brave!

aw, that's really all I've got.
Truthfully I've really been down in the dumps lately, I feel like I'm missing out on everything around me. Like I've took a wrong turn somewhere? I'm still trying to be happy though! I mean I have a great GREAT family behind me every step of the way, everyday! & I love them, love that they remind me of that it always makes me happy(: I miss my family!! my HUGE Jones family! I hope the reunion comes soon! & my dad's family, my CRAZY family, I miss them just as much!
*Keeping my chin up! Just got to get through 3 more months & school will be out, I'll be ready for summer..=license & p.blessing! I really can't wait!