July 8 2011

The first shock of my life.
July 8, 2011. My Dad had a heart attack. REAL LIFE. HEART ATTACK. Thats only supposed to happen to Old people! Not my dad! I was worried, But I still had a calm feeling. My dad was Life flighted and stayed at the Utah Valley Hospital until Monday Morning. My 5 siblings and I stayed at grandma Celia's house, waiting on good news. I have literally received a Miracle in my life. I am so so thankful for prayers and priesthood blessings! & all the great nurses and Doctors out there! (: Including my Mom. I have also learned that I do not! want to be a teen mom. hah I survived 4 nights with 2 baby girls but I don't think I could've done it completely voluntarily. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE! MY DAD! (: & I'M SO HAPPY HE'S OKAY! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY FAMILY TOO (: ALL OF YOU! Thanks for all the prayers and help along the way, my dad will just have to work at getting better (:

It's Worth It.

You have 3 choices in life ; Give up. Give in. Or Give it your all!

Girls camp is next week. I'm a junior leader, & I can't wait! I've been putting things together non stop (:
Our theme is "It's A Jungle Out There", I thought the song "He Lives In You" from Lion King 2 would be a cool song to play for part of my Fireside (on my birthday!) It's a cool song if you think of it in a spiritual way, &!! It fits the Jungle theme perfect (: It's short and sweet, but I can't wait! I am so excited (: Throw me luck! (:

Taking It Slow

I can't wait to turn 16 (:

Worst Fears; Greatest Lessons Learned

I have until the 25th. Then I'm free for summer!
I can't wait, so many things are wrong that I just want to be alone all the time! I hate how people change, you know?
I hate the fact that I'll probably never see any of my high school friends again after school. But sometimes it makes me feel better, to think about that. I have lost so many friends lately- they say I haven't lost them, but it's that distance feeling that I can't stand.
There's days where I can think I'm better than I was, then there's days where I miss my old self, my old life.
Everyday I sit and think of things I want to change, but then come to the conclusion that there's no way to change those things & that it's all a part of growing up. Growing up sucks.
BUT sometimes all I ever want, is to be "Grown Up". That way, I can deal with myself and not have to worry about anyone else or anyone else worrying about me- then I realize that family steps in at that point.
My family, I know for a fact, worries about me. I know I worry about them too, and that's how it will always be. Because that's love. LOVE.
I love my family. I'm so thankful for them, I know how blessed I am to have every single one of them! (ps; My Mom's family I swear has like 2,000+ grand kids which all our my cousins! Never ending!(: haha)I love how close I am with a lot of my family, and most the time I want to be closer- I'm always wanting to see my family.

SO! After you've read my whole thought process ^ - My point is that FAMILY will always be there. I realized that I have to stop worrying about HIGH SCHOOL. Because it's nothing, the people there are nothing. Sure I've got great friends and I've got a lot out of it that I'll remember forever, but when it's over- it's over. Life goes on & I shouldn't be scared, I'll never be alone (: