Worst Fears; Greatest Lessons Learned

I have until the 25th. Then I'm free for summer!
I can't wait, so many things are wrong that I just want to be alone all the time! I hate how people change, you know?
I hate the fact that I'll probably never see any of my high school friends again after school. But sometimes it makes me feel better, to think about that. I have lost so many friends lately- they say I haven't lost them, but it's that distance feeling that I can't stand.
There's days where I can think I'm better than I was, then there's days where I miss my old self, my old life.
Everyday I sit and think of things I want to change, but then come to the conclusion that there's no way to change those things & that it's all a part of growing up. Growing up sucks.
BUT sometimes all I ever want, is to be "Grown Up". That way, I can deal with myself and not have to worry about anyone else or anyone else worrying about me- then I realize that family steps in at that point.
My family, I know for a fact, worries about me. I know I worry about them too, and that's how it will always be. Because that's love. LOVE.
I love my family. I'm so thankful for them, I know how blessed I am to have every single one of them! (ps; My Mom's family I swear has like 2,000+ grand kids which all our my cousins! Never ending!(: haha)I love how close I am with a lot of my family, and most the time I want to be closer- I'm always wanting to see my family.

SO! After you've read my whole thought process ^ - My point is that FAMILY will always be there. I realized that I have to stop worrying about HIGH SCHOOL. Because it's nothing, the people there are nothing. Sure I've got great friends and I've got a lot out of it that I'll remember forever, but when it's over- it's over. Life goes on & I shouldn't be scared, I'll never be alone (: